Read this today in the recovery devotional:

"It is in the moment of testing that we come to know our inner strength. There is no way to know what we will do at that moment of truth. Some of us have survived these moments. Some have fallen before them. There is no preparation but to find faith in God and to serve others in their need."

I need to have more of this kind of humility and respect for the power of addiction in my own life. It is not something to be overconfident in. We must not flippantly believe we can be lax in our recovery work and still survive. We must constantly be working to prepare for these "moments of testing" through doing the work of recovery: journalling, fellowship, creating/revising our relapse prevention plan, identifying holes in our belief structure that make us vulnurable, meditating on the reality that God gives us in his word.

Doing this work of recovery is the work of "finding faith in God" and strengthening it.